think rainbows

okay, it's December already, and I just thought i'd do an end-of-the-year-slash-December blog or something..or that's just my excuse for just wanting to blog..=D

Today's December4, 21 days before christmas, 27 days before 2010! Can you imagine that, it seems like last week was just February, we were awaiting our thesis defense, the other day was just March and we were having our Baccalaureate Mass, and yesterady was just May and I was just starting with work. And now we're approaching a new year. Woah. Talk about fast!

But really, things have been different since I started working. I think I'm starting to understand what they say that you tend to age early or immediately when you are working. Because when you're working, or at work, time flies sooo fast. (especially when you're counting the hours/minutes to your time out) As in really fast, sometimes you'll just be surprised that the weekend's over already, and you have to work again, and then suddenly it's Friday already again. It's just so different. But I'm still missing a lot. Stuff I or we were able to do when we were still inside the UST campus.

One example is the feel of the holiday season. Compared to when I was still studying, I think it's only November but I could already feel the holiday season. That is, at school. Because you can see the maintenance people setting up the big christmas tree at the main field, or you could see them setting up lights on the trees along the lovers' lane, or they're already putting up decorations on the main building. And after classes when you walk around the campus at night, you could really feel the cool air. And you hear about christmas parties, or some other preparations for christmas activities and stuff from a lot of people around the campus or even just within our College. Compared here in our place of work, the preparations are different, simple, and there are really not that many christmas decorations outside. And yes I could still feel the cool air but I couldn't enjoy it. So see, it's just so different and how I wish I could at least still go around the campus with all the lights and christmas decorations, and even on my way home, I see a lot of lights and decorations, especially in Manila. And I'm looking forward to spending some time at night aroung the UST campus once again, before they remove the christmas decorations, haha. I just miss it. :)

We don't have christmas decorations at home yet, though kuya already set up the capiz parol outside. I hope we could put up the christmas tree at least before Simbang Gabi starts. Simbang Gabi starts on the 16th right? (15th for the anticipated mass.) Have you completed those 9 masses ever? I have, before, and I hope I could complete it again this time, just because I'd want to. It's just a different feeling when you're able to complete all the 9 masses, never mind the wish, hahaha. And I think I'll try to attend some of the masses sa madaling araw talaga, I miss going home after mass and eating newly cooked puto bumbong and bibingka for breakfast, yumyum! =D

Oh and another thing that I miss is the long holiday, I don't think it's gonna be like that here at work, or at least I could do that but I have to file my leaves pa, haha. And the Paskuhan, I don't know if I'll be able to go to this year's Paskuhan, but I do hope that I can, together with my friends and/or classmates of course. =D I'm missing a lot! Hahaha. I'm planning to buy a journal/planner. I just haven't chosen yet between the Belle de jour (not sure with the spelling, please bear with me) or the one from freespeech publications or something. The one with the "This journal will actually change someone's life!" or something. I think the Starbucks planner is just too formal for me, and besides, I'd have to spend a lot and take in a lot of calories just to be able to get that planner. =P Help me choose! Hahaha. I have to buy a planner/journal before christmas at least, baka maubusan ako, and of course i have to have that before the year ends! =P

P.S.
Regarding my previous blog, I wasn't able to go with my college friends last Saturday, we had to practice for our performance for the office christmas party on the 11th. Sayang, i hope there's still a next time. Goodness, i hope we'll do good on our performance, i'm nervous, i don't wanna mess up, hahaha.

P.P.S.
This is not an end-of-the-year blog pala, just a December blog maybe. I haven't summarized my 2009 yet e. =P

I wish I could just blog more often. But then...oh well, at least I could still blog from time to time. =))

Last Saturday, November 21, I went to Eastwood with some of my closest friends from college. That was the first time I was able to go out with them again after college. And that was the first time that I saw some of them since our graduation last March. HAHAHA. I know, ang tagal na nun!

The real purpose of that gala was to surprise Angeli. It's actually her despedida. The original plan was to watch New Moon then she will treat us or something, for her despedida nga. But since no one confirmed if they are available for Saturday, she thought that hindi na matutuloy. But Joyce thought that we could just surprise her. Fortunately, almost all of us were available that Saturday, and we were able to give Angeli a good surprise! It's so nice to surprise somebody and see that they really were surprised, hahaha.

We ate first, then decided to play sa Timezone after strolling around the new Eastwood mall, then nag-Videoke din. Inubos lang yung card sa timezone then we went home na rin. Napagod kami lahat dun sa last na nilaro namin, I can't remember what's it called, basta yung may binabato ka. And ang dami na naming bumabato, but na-fail pa rin kami ng dalawang beses, hahaha.

This Saturday, we will be watching New Moon daw, sana payagan ako, haha, because I really enjoyed their company again last Saturday, and I'm sure mag-e-enjoy din kami this coming Saturday. =D And we still have one more Timezone card para ubusin, hahaha...

*i'm looking forward to seeing my other college classmates as well! sana matuloy yung christmas party, =D*

I’ve waited 365 days for this day to arrive. It has been exactly one year that we, Ifor and I, have been together.

Very much unbelievable; very much incredible; that’s all that I can say. The way I felt when I realized that we were approaching the celebration of our first year together, the celebration of my first anniversary ever, I just couldn’t explain how excited I was. I never even thought about it that way, that we were to spend our first anniversary together like that. My first anniversary with my first ever boyfriend, my first ever relationship. I felt that we were so happy together during the past months, days, weeks, and I really couldn’t ask for anything more. We’ve shared a lot together already, and I know that there are still more to come. But I couldn’t help but notice that at least, in our first year together, we didn’t have any big problems at all. We enjoyed each other’s company, knew and learned new stuff about each other. We had some misunderstandings, some sort of petty quarrels and stuff but I think that’s normal in a relationship. But no big difficulties or whatsoever. And we’re very, very much thankful for that.

We talked about what we were going to do to celebrate our first anniversary. Of course it has to be special. It’s our day! We decided to play Bowling since it’s something that we always talked about, and that we haven't tried together. Ifor plays Bowling, though they do the duckpin instead of the 10-pin. And I told him that he should try the 10-pin sometime, and so we decided to do it during our anniversary; to be able to do something different, something we haven't done before together, something unforgettable. We met here at the office, and then we went straight to MOA and did our usual activities whenever we go there. We ate, talked about stuff, about us, about our anniversary, played arcade, and then we did the highlight of the day.

The first time we played, I think only 3 or 4 lanes were being used, so there weren’t really a lot of people. I have played 10-pin before but I’m really not that good. I just play, that’s it. He was pretty excited because it’s his first time playing 10-pin and I was excited because the last time I was able to play Bowling was last April. During the first game, he won, 91-85. At least it was a close fight! Hahaha. While we were playing, we gave each other our gifts. I gave him some homemade pastillas, which I personally did, as well as a letter. I couldn’t think of anything else to give him but I wanted it to be special and with a personal touch. It was supposed to be the scrap book, but I wasn’t able to do it. Then he gave me a card with a pop-up picture of 12 Hershey’s kisses which he personally did, which was really, really nice, and a CD with 12 songs in it. He was really worried because he couldn’t give me anything much more than the card and the CD but it really didn’t matter. Actually, those were the sweetest gifts he ever gave me because it had his own personal touch. And I like personalized gifts.

Then we took a little break, we walked around, played arcade where for the first time, we had a tie when we played air hockey, 4-4. Though some of the goals weren't counted, and technically I still won, but still, the score's a tie, haha. When we got back to the Bowling center, there were more people this time. He was sort of frustrated about his performance during the first game we had and he needed to make a comeback, or something like that, and we were both bitin with the first game, so we had a rematch. I really didn’t play well the second time, hahaha. But he did! His score was 161. And mine? 61. HAHAHA. E kasi naman, he had three strikes na magkakasunod, and I had one. Hahaha. Then after the game, I was hungry already so we looked for something to eat and after dinner, we went our separate ways again, we went home. (He didn’t forget his promise this time!)

I really didn’t want the day to end anymore. I was having so much fun, and I was enjoying myself with him. Even though we were only doing much of the same stuff that we are doing whenever we see each other, it really didn’t matter. It’s our day, it’s our anniversary, we’re together, and I think that’s all that matters. When I arrived home I wanted to immediately listen to the CD that he gave me because I was so curious of what songs are in that CD. There wasn’t a list included or anything so I really had to listen to the CD to be able to know the songs included in it. I didn’t finish the songs anymore because that was already kind of late, I just wanted to know really what the songs are. First song pa lang, it made me smile already. Kilig! Seriously! Hahaha. I mean, coming from him, and knowing that all the songs are for me, it was really sweet. The card was supposed to be the inlet for the CD, kaso it didn’t fit anymore so he didn’t put it anymore. (In the front of the card, it was written, ‘All for you’) I just smiled the whole time that I was playing the CD and I felt like my heart’s melting or something. Then after I listened to the songs, I went straight to bed and guess what…I cried! Can you imagine how happy I was feeling at that time! This is the first time ever that it’s happened to me, crying tears of joy. It felt weird actually, because I was smiling all the while and then I just cried. Hahaha.

But I never thought that it could actually happen to me. Or at least that he could do it, or at least that it would happen at that time. It was just a different experience for me and thanks to him! He didn’t need to do anything super special or super bongga to make me feel like that. Now I’m looking forward to all that could still happen and all that we could still share together.

*if you haven't watched the movie yet, I warn you, there might be some spoilers for you in this post...*


We were able to watch Michael Jackson's This is it yesterday on its first showing day. Of course a lot of people waited for this movie, and I say, it is really worth watching. Just like other MJ concerts, opening pa lang bongga na. The lightings for the opening of the concert were amazing. Of course his performances here were really not super energetic, but what the hell, I didn't care, this is MJ performing, and even though it was just their rehearsals, still I enjoyed watching him perform. He still gave it all though, and his moves were still the same and he sang his songs just like how he had sung them before. All I could do while watching the movie was to smile. If I could only dance or yell inside the movie house, I would. But everyone else inside the movie house was so focused when the movie started, and everyone was real quiet, paying much attention to the movie. It was really great seeing him perform after so many years that he wasn't able to, even if it wasn't even live or in a real concert.

I thought that the people with him during their rehearsals, his dancers, back-up singers,
those included in the band, and all the people in their rehearsal area were really lucky.
They were able to spend time with Michael before he passed away. (If he really did?) They
were able to get a feel how to work with him, and I’m sure they were able to know him a bit more than just the Michael Jackson that they see on the television. And it makes me think, why did he really die? I mean, what's the real cause?? Because if you would watch or have watched the movie, you will see how great he was while onstage. He was always energetic. You wouldn't see a hint that he was so exhausted already. He just continued to rehearse and rehearse. He performed like there were real audiences watching him. He still had his moves, his signature moves, and it shows how much he is enjoying what he's doing and how excited he is for the concert. Even if he had Kenny Ortega, or the other people working with him for the concert, he was hands on. He wanted the best for the concert, and he wanted it the way he used to do it. He wanted it perfect. The sounds, the choreography, the lights, everything. He wanted his fans to enjoy and have the time of their lives when they watch the concert. (Kahit rehearsals pa nga lang nag-enjoy na yung mga dancers niya while watching, what more if it was on an actual concert.) And while watching him perform, I felt envious of the people he was always with. I wanted to be there too. I felt like I wanted to hug him or something, coz he was so great. Maybe that's how his super avid fans felt, although on a much more intense level. But I also had mixed feelings, I wanted to feel bad for him because of what happened to him, but then I was feeling glad because the This is it movie was really great, and I was with my best guy, ha-ha.

He sang some of his most famous songs. Billie Jean, Beat it, Thriller, Smooth Criminal, Jam, They don't really care about us, I just can't stop loving you, Earth song, Man in the mirror, Black or white, and many more, and even some Jackson 5 songs. (I can't remember the other songs, what did I miss?) And they had the original choreographies of course, as well as the original narration from the Thriller and the creepy laugh, which made it more exciting, like a blast from the past. Michael still wanted it old school, like how it used to be. They shot some short films (like what was in his music videos) for Smooth Criminal, Thriller, and Earth song. It was really great, and the set for the concert was really amazing. They had a really big stage, and like they wanted to relive his concerts before, they had the part where Michael was riding the cherry picker or whatever that was called. If you've watched some of his concerts, you will see that, the part where he was standing on something like a scaffolding and it was moved over the audience, and there was wind under it. It was so cool seeing how they were doing it again. They even showed in the movie the part where Michael was singing the Earth song, and how a bulldozer would enter the stage and how it looked like it was going to eat Michael but it stopped just right behind him. It was wild, but it shows how much planning they've put into it, and how much they really wanted to give everyone an amazing concert, something like they've never seen before. While they were doing everything, the rehearsals, the shoots, you could also see that Michael was really enjoying, and that everyone wanted to do all that they can to contribute and help to make the perfect concert for Michael Jackson. And Michael, on the other hand, was also helping in a way by correcting everyone and telling them to do this, and that, so that it would be better, and in a very nice way. Great artist, great, great person, really.

At the end of the movie while the credits were rolling, his newly released song, This is
it, was playing. It was a nice song, and it would've been nice if he was able to perform it
for his fans, live. Super sayang. Super. I wish I were able to enjoy his music while he was
still alive. Well, I enjoyed some of it, but now I feel like I miss him. Like I missed a
lot now that he is gone. It's just now that I’m really seeing just how much of an
incredible artist he really is, nobody could take that away from him, even if they say that
he is very much eccentric or weird, he still is and will always be Michael Jackson. The
artist who gave us a lot of number one hits, the artist who started out so young and yet he
was able to survive his career and music for so many years, the artist who had so many
different ideas for all his music videos making them very enjoyable and very unique. I
couldn't say anything more.

Michael Jackson is one of a kind. Not just a great artist, but a very remarkable and enjoyable person as well. He was always for the love. He wanted the best for his fans, for everyone. It would've been a huge comeback for him, that concert. But, all we could enjoy right now are the rehearsals for the concert that will never be. At least they were able to shoot some parts of the rehearsals for the concert, it's something worth watching, kahit paulit-ulit, I would never get tired watching it. And kahit paulit-ulit din ako makinig sa songs niya, I would also never get tired listening to them. But whenever I see him dance, or hear him sing, all I could wish for is just, hay, how I wish he was still alive. So I advice you guys, go, watch the movie, you won't regret it. =D

*I still got hangover from the movie...listening to Michael's songs while writing this
blog...that's how much I enjoyed watching it...=))*

*i was browsing thru my profile and i noticed this: 20 years old. OMG, i'm 21 na nga pala! hahahaha*

Finally, finally a new blog post! Been a while right? Well after all the typhoons have passed, I guess it's just right to start something new again, and start a new blog!

Can you believe how fast time flies? It feels like yesterday was only September, and now today it's October 11! And speaking of October 11, today is our 11th month anniversary. I'm really really very happy because of course I'm happy we're getting stronger as the days pass by, and that we're already at our 11th month! And within a month, we'll be celebrating our first ever anniversary. Would you look at that.

Let me share to you what we did today.
Actually, today is my mom's birthday celebration. (her birthday was last October 9) Since it's our monthsary as well, of course we wanted to see each other. (after two weeks!) so I asked my mom if I could invite Ifor over at our house and she said it's fine, so of course I'm relieved! haha. Anyway, we started the day by hearing a mass together, been a while since we last did that, then we looked for some dog food, for Ifor's dogs, and then went home and waited for my mom's guests. Actually it's just some relatives, nothing big of a party really, just a simple celebration here at home. And of course I got the chance to spend the whole day with Ifor! He even assisted us when we prepared for the surprise for my mom and my cousin whose birthday is on October 16. We just spent some time talking, eating, eating, talking, hahaha. Nothing that special but we got to spend the day together and we got to see each other!

He went home after we ate dinner. I just so love this day as well because all the things that I requested him to do, he did them all! Heehee. =P First was the mass, i asked him if we could go to mass together and he said yes. Then when he was about to go home, he was supposed to go with my aunt which happens to live in Antipolo, and they could drop him off over at Marikina, but I asked him to stay and wag na lang sumabay with my Aunt, and he stayed! haha. I just so love it, and i feel so lucky, and loved, haha.

Well, of course the day didn't end without some you-know-what-cheesy-stuff in it. =P
I'm just really very happy right now. =D
Thank you pb very very much!
And really, I'm looking forward to our next celebration, and to more celebrations!
I love you, i love you, i love you! ♥

*malapit na mag 1 year old si yoshi!*

*blogging just for the purpose of blogging*

I really have nothing to say, I just thought I’d want to post something today. How’s the world been? How are you? Yes, you, the one reading this blog. HAHAHA. Is it so obvious that I really can’t write anything sensible here right now? Hay.

Anyway, today’s Thursday, which means that tomorrow’s gonna be Friday! (yeah, as if that wasn’t really obvious) Well of course I’m excited, it’s the last day of the week! And there’s gonna be a birthday celebration at the office after office hours so that’s gonna be great, I get to see my friends over there at LBP. (LBP/Landbank is where the other Tera office is located, it's in Pedro Gil i think; wish I was located there, hahaha.) And I get to go to work later than the usual. (err, hopefully? haha)

I’m so bored at the office. I can’t talk to anybody, as in real talk, you know, speak. HAHAHA. That sounds weird. I’m so quiet at the office, I’m not used to it, really. Everything’s just through chat, we only speak from time to time, hahaha. And that chat is just through local network, we don't have Internet, BOO! Actually, I wrote this blog while at the office. Because I wasn’t in the mood yet to work, so I just wrote this blog. And besides, I’m almost done with what I’m doing, so I just let the time pass and do what I need to do a bit later so that I’ll have something to do until my time out.

This weekend, Ifor will be going to Boracay. (together with his mom and his mom’s officemates, and his sister) I’m so freakin’ jealous! Hahaha. Alex, a college classmate, will be going to Boracay as well! (together with his officemates) I wish I could have some time to go out of town as well. Preferably with my friends, so that it’ll be more fun, but if not, my family would be just as perfect as well. I just want some relax time too. And a good out of town trip would be perfect! Tagaytay would do! And besides, it’s the nearest that we could go to, that would still be a nice out of town trip. I wonder when I’ll be able to do that. Hopefully soon. And what sucks more with Ifor’s trip to Boracay, is that there’s no signal there, which means I won’t be able to talk to him, for 2-3 days. Ugh, not cool. Though I asked him for pasalubong, hahaha. But still, I got used to talking to him everyday! Oh well, I’ll just have to make tiis for 2-3 days. GOOD LUCK. >.<

*I had a bad dream, well, not really super bad, but still, it wasn’t a good dream. I wonder why I dreamt about that, tsktsktsk. Oh well, IT’S JUST A DREAM.*

*this post is just a spur of the moment post; i just want to share my September 11*

'Twas our 10th month anniversary. Yay for us! At least we're going a sort of long way already, and i'm really happy about that, and our relationship is really so far so good! Kahit na we don't always see each other, we still get to talk everyday, and we still get to keep our relationship going strong.

After more than 2 weeks of not seeing each other, (i know, matagal!) we decided that we meet up on the day of our monthsary. Just to celebrate the day together, and especially to see each other. Supposedly we were to meet up early but due to some unprecedented or unwanted circumstances, we weren't able to. I was starting to get pissed, but, i just thought, oh well, at least we're still gonna see each other. And voila! when he arrived, i couldn't help but smile. I just can't stop smiling! Even though i told myself i was to act as if i'm so pissed at him. I guess i just missed him too badly already.

So we went to MOA, as usual, and we ate, walked around, the usual stuff that we do. We just spent time together, and we're already happy like that. At least we're together right? And we felt how much we missed each other. We didn't even notice that it was already getting late, and it was time to go home already.

When i arrived home, there was a surprise for me. There's this notebook where we write some letters for each other, and i wrote something for him, and then he gave it back but i didn't want to have it. Then that's why he didn't want to take it too, because he wrote something there for me, while i was playing dance maniax. =D

The letter/message was simple, but very very meaningful and sweet. It meant a lot to me, kahit ilang lines lang yun and kahit simple lang talaga siya. Natuwa talaga ako. And, as i've told him, at the end of the day, he still made my day, he still made me happy, and he made me sleep smiling, for real! 'Twas really sweet. =D

I love him so much! That i'm very sure of.
And...i miss him already. ♥

Today is September 9, 2009. 09-09-09.
How was your day?
Obviously, it’s been a while since my last blog post, and I just think it’s about time that I create a new one. For a lot has happened already since then.

Event #1:
August 26, 2009 was ifor’s 23rd birthday. Nothing special really, he wasn’t even sure if he were to celebrate it or not. I mean, you know, have a small celebration at home, invite friends and family over, nothing fancy, just to be able to celebrate his birthday. I thought he was seriously not going to celebrate it anymore, but he changed his mind. Besides, I was persistent that he change his mind, that he have a celebration, even just a small one, haha. He decided to do it the Sunday after his birthday, since that was a long weekend because Monday was declared a holiday. But before that, I was also persistent that we see each other on his birthday; just because it’s his birthday, and of course I want to greet him in person. Not just thru text or a phone call, I want it to be in person. And of course, I wanted to see him, hahaha. Anyway, he wasn’t also sure of that, because of some “unavoidable” circumstances. But still, we or rather he was able to make it happen. We were still able to see each other on the day of his birthday, and he was even wearing the t-shirt I gave him! =D He thought that I was going to give him something, that’s why I was so persistent that we meet up. But even before we met up, he already got his gift. I asked a friend/classmate of ours (who happened to be very very nice to agree, thanks Raged!!) if he could give it to him, because at least, even if we won’t be able to meet up, he would still get his gift on the day of his birthday. =D We did nothing special really, sabi nga niya, parang the usual na pagkikita lang namin. Well it didn’t matter, and I didn’t mind, because at least, I saw him, I was able to greet him; we were still able to at least celebrate his birthday. But, there’s a big BUT. I asked for permission from my parents if I could go to his birthday celebration at their house, of course. Unfortunately, they didn’t approve of it, or rather my mom, initially, didn’t really approve of it. And told me, na isama ko daw si kuya kung gusto ko talaga magpunta. And that’s what my dad also told me, if I wanted to go, isama ko daw si kuya. I was just so disappointed upon hearing that, I even cried, haha. It’s just that, it’s just a birthday party. And I know na may lakad si kuya that Sunday kaya baka hindi niya rin ako masamahan, so it ended up na hindi ako makakapunta. They’re so traditional really. AS IN. well, siyempre I couldn’t do anything but just say yes. Who am I na magreklamo pa, mag-away lang kami, sabi nga ni Ifor, baka daw sa pagpipilit ko pati sa kanya magalit parents ko, and we might even end up breaking up. So I just let it pass, and I was very very apologetic to Ifor, because I know he wants me to be there, as much as I want to be there as well. And I was very sad as well.

Event #2:
Adding to that sadness from knowing that I won’t be able to go to Ifor’s birthday celebration, last August 28, 2009, something happened, something tragic and very sad. My paternal grandmother died that Friday morning. (My dad’s mom, and the only grandparent I have left) It was very very shocking because it was so sudden, and just the Wednesday before that, my mom was with her, and the Sunday before that, we were with her because the Sunday before that was her daughter’s (my tita’s) birthday celebration. And there wasn’t any hint that that event would happen. I woke up that Friday morning, made a call to my mom, and right then and there she told me that lola Inang was gone. Namumugto pa mga mata ko that morning from crying the day before, which nahalata pala ni mama, hahaha. Anyway, it was just so sad, I wasn’t in the mood to go to work anymore but I still did, nag-half day na lang ako. And we spent the rest of the days (for the wake) going back and forth from Las Piñas to Bulacan, and vice versa. (wala kasi kaming matutulugan sa Bulacan kaya we have to go home rin) I didn’t go to work during the whole wake up to the day that she was buried. But, the nice thing there, me and my cousins were able to have our bonding times.

Event #3:
But, the nice thing there, me and my cousins were able to have our bonding times. September 2 happened to be one of my cousin’s birthday, and so we had a little celebration for her, my dad bought ice cream and there was also a cake for her. And speaking of my dad, he was able to come home for his mom’s wake and burial. My dad’s two other brothers were also able to come home, so it was a little family reunion as well. And then, September 3, was my other cousin’s birthday. That was the day of the burial. After the burial, when we were all home, my cousin invited us to dinner, at SM Marilao Shakey’s (with the very entertaining kuya there, I wasn’t able to remember his name, haha). And so we went there, puro bata, cousins only, haha. It was good na rin because of course everyday we were there at my lola’s wake, it was tiring too, we were all not able to sleep well, and at least we were able to sort of unwind a bit after a tiring week (especially for me, kuya, and mama!). We also had some Kodak moments after the burial, and even at the church. (the one in the church was really weird)

I used that title because all of these events were really unexpected. Right?
And of course just a little update of what has happened after my last blog post.
*looking forward to Friday! yay!*

Nonoy’s running for the Presidential position, are you going to vote for him?
I think I would. =P