think rainbows

Goodness, it’s the first day of June already! And in 24 days, I’ll be turning 22, wow. At the start of this year, I thought it’s still a long time before me birthday. And now, it’s already June? Hahaha. It’s weird how time flies by so fast. Sometimes you think where did all the time go? How did I spend every day of my life for the past 5 months? If I think about it, it’s kind of routinely, at least the waking up and going to the office and then going home part. But after that, and during weekends, at least I still get to do the things that I like. And this year, I got to go out with friends more often than before. (and I’m sure there’s still more to come!) I’ve done some new things as well, and I’m happy about it. (G-Y-M) At least I’m doing something different from how I was last year. Though the problems that come with work are still there, and I think it’s not gonna go away just yet, hahaha.

The past months may not have treated me very well, but at least it taught me a lot of new lessons in life. We all have to go through hardships in order for us to be strong, and for us to understand the importance of having friends and family around us. We have to experience being alone in order for us to truly know and understand who we really are. And we have to feel lost in order for us to be able to find what we’ve lost in the process of self-discovery, and to be able to be there for our own selves when nobody would be. I’m not saying that after this, we’re not going to make mistakes anymore. Nobody’s perfect and everyone makes their own mistakes. I’ll still be making my own mistakes as time progresses but at least I’ll know how to handle them if ever I repeat the same mistakes again, or I’ll know how to deal with those mistakes if ever I make new ones. I feel like I’ve become more mature in this process, become a better person, and I thank the people who’ve helped me all throughout.

It’s just now that I am writing this that I’ve come to realize how the past events have affected me. It’s still there, I still think about it at times, but for sure, it’s not like before. It’s a whole different scenario now, and I tend to keep it that way. It’s much better that way and I know that the best person I could ask for help, and could help me the best, is myself. :)

I’ll be starting a new journey, a new adventure, with what I have and with what I’ll be reaping in the process, and in what better way to start than today, for the first day of my favorite month, June. (C’mon, it’s self-explanatory why I love June, hahaha.) It’s not going to be an easy ride, I don’t know what to expect, but it adds to the excitement and the fun. And I’ll try and not forget the things that I’ve learned, the people that are there for me, and of course, my rejuvenated self. :)

So much for a first-day-of-the-month blog! I’m actually not expecting to write those stuff up there, but at least it just helps me realize how much I’ve really been through, and how I’ve been able to cope up with it. Now, going back to June, (sometimes I think why my parents didn’t name me after my birth month, June, it’s kinda cute right?) I’m kind of torn in the excitement of my upcoming birthday. Usually, I want it to arrive already, but this time, I’m kind of halfway. Why? My dad’s here for his yearly 1-month vacation, and obviously he’ll be here for my birthday, which is really exciting. But at the same time, 2 days after my birthday, he’ll be leaving, which is the not-so-good part. Though we’re used to him going and leaving, (he’s an OFW) still, it’s sad when it’s the goodbye part already. But at least we’ve still got more or less a month to spend with him. And I’ve got him for my special day! I think the last time he was here for my birthday was during my 18th birthday. That’s 4 years ago! So this birthday’s pretty exciting. =D

Another thing why I thought of writing this first-day-of-the-month blog is because I wanted to create a wish list for my birthday. Just like a Christmas wish list. I think this is the first time that I’ve thought of creating one, but I just wanted to create one, since I’ve been thinking of a lot of things that I want for my birthday. And since they always tell you to ‘make a wish before you blow your candle’, I’m just creating my own wish list in advance. Ha-ha! And besides, I don’t ask for any material things when I ‘make a wish before I blow my candle.’

Okay, so here goes my Birthday Wish list: