think rainbows

June 21, 2010

4 days to go!

And I’ll be turning 22, OMG! (I had to compute in my mind if it was really 22, haha!)
Time is sooooo fast. It’s already the 21st of June! BTW, someone I know is celebrating her birthday today, Kaye Cruz, happy birthday. :) I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this before but I feel like I know a lot of people who are celebrating/celebrated their birthday during this month of June; people from high school, college, office, relatives, friends, acquaintances, and it’s pretty exciting that’s why I always wait for June to arrive.

In accordance with June, I want to share with you the past weekend that I had, June 18-20. It was so, let’s just say, fully booked, ever since Friday night. To start things off, we went to Sitcom Live last Friday night, a comedy bar near our place. It was just me, my mom, my dad, and my kuya. It was like a family bonding for us. This wasn't our first time to a comedy bar since we’ve been to 22nd street as well before, another comedy bar which is also just near our place. (There are also other branches of 22nd street in Antipolo I think and in some other places, not sure of the others though.) If you just want to laugh and have fun, I recommend you go to comedy bars, just be prepared to laugh your heart out and be ‘game’ with whatever the stand-up comedians will say. Anyway, going back, there was this concert that night at Sitcom for Voyz Avenue, a new all-male group from Tv5. I really didn’t know them, but when I heard them sing, they were actually pretty good. And of course, they’re all good looking, no doubt about that. But there was somebody else who already caught my eye even if the Voyz Avenue consisted of five good looking guys who could sing and dance well. Before the actual show or concert started, the stand up comedians first introduced themselves and sang a couple of songs. Probably just for an opening act. There was this one stand-up comedian who didn’t look gay at all. As in! When he walked out of the stage, I’m pretty sure every single lady in that place that night noticed his good looks. But then he immediately said, “I’m gay.” It was so funny! But boy, was he really good looking! I couldn't keep my eyes off of him. We stayed there until around 2:30 am I think, and I’ve been telling my mom and brother that I’d really want a picture with him, my gay crush. So I really waited until after the show so that I'd see him again. I was just waiting for the right moment to ask him for a picture, and when we were about to leave, I just had to do it. I went up front near the stage, asked the waiter if he could call him. But then he saw me, and he went down the stage! And I told him if I could take my picture with him, he politely said sure, we took the picture, I thanked him, he thanked me, and I left with a silly grin on my face feeling so kilig the whole time. Ha-ha! How I wish he’s just confused, or pretending or whatever. How I wish he wasn't gay at all! Hahaha!

Then the next day, Saturday, my dad and I went to SM Center to buy some tools. Then in the afternoon, we went to MOA to have our Father’s Day celebration with my uncle (my dad’s brother) and his children, my cousins. We ate at Lamesa grill, then we played Bowling, and we watched Toy Story 3. It was just a very light bonding moment for all of us, no worries or anything at all. We just had fun, and it was really nice. I wish we could have done another one like that, but my dad’s schedule is just too busy already that we can’t fit in something like that anymore. But it’s okay, we had that day anyway, and the bonding night last Friday. Then Sunday, we went to Bulakan, Bulacan to attend a christening where my brother was one of the godfathers. We practically spent the whole day there, another bonding moment for our family, together with other family members there.
So basically, I had a ‘family weekend’ because I was able to spend the whole weekend with my family. It’s nice to do this from time to time because you get to bond with your whole family, you get to have fun together, and you get to share more time with each other. Perfect. I’m glad this happened. :)

Looking forward to next weekend!

Today's the 15th of June...meaning, only 10 days more and it's gonna be my birthday!

I wonder if this template is too dark for my blog?
I'm still in the process of finding the perfect template/layout for my blog, I just haven't found time to create my own personal layout yet. :|
And forgive the picture, haha.

Oh, and happy labor day!
:)

Ang Aking Buhay Simbahan

Noong nasa Grade 6 ako, na-introduce sa akin ang Luke 18, sa pamamagitan ni Teacher Lanie na noon ay teacher namin sa Sibika. Isang youth group sa St.Joseph Parish, Bamboo Organ na para sa mga kabataang tulad ko na nasa Grade 6, hanggang sa mga kabtaang nasa 3rd year high school. Sumali ako dahil karamihan sa aking mga kaklase at kaibigan ay sumali. At naisip ko, mukhang exciting siya, kaya naman masayang masaya ako nung pinayagan ako nila Mama. ‘Yun ata ang first time na sa ibang lugar ako natulog, at hindi sa bahay. Kahit na malapit lang siya sa bahay, o sa school lang din ginawa, iba pa rin ang feeling na ang mga kasama mo matulog ay mga kasama mo rin sa school araw-araw. Marami akong nakilalang mga bagong kaibigan doon. Sabi nga nila, ‘yung batch na yata namin ang may pinaka-maraming sumali. At siyempre proud kami at masaya kami dun. Mga noon ay nakikita ko lang sa corridor, naging kabatian ko na rin sila pagkatapos ng Luke 18 Weekend Experience. Nakilala ko rin dito sila Ate Tess, Kuya King, Kuya Joseph, Kuya Conrad, Ate Riann, Ate Dang, atbp. Ilan lamang sila sa aming mga naging facilitator noon, na talaga namang hindi ko makakalimutan. Natutuwa pa ako kapag nakikita ko sila noon sa school at nakakabatian, naalala nila ako! :)

Pagkatapos ng weekend experience ay ang mga lingo-linggong meeting naman. Mahirap magpaalam para sa mga meeting, pero sinusubukan ko pa rin na makapunta palagi. Lalo na noon na nagsisimula pa lang ako matutong mag-commute mag-isa. Hanggang sa nung nag-high school ako, ay hindi na ako masyado naging active. Sabi ko nun sa sarili ko, gusto ko maging katulad nila Ate Tess, gusto ko rin maging facilitator sa weekend experience. Kaya naman nung nawala ako sa parish, akala ko ay hindi na matutupad ‘yung pagiging faci ko. Hanggang sa dumating ang 3rd year high school, nagkaroon ng Luke 18 Weekend Experience part 2 nung panahon na ‘yun. Pagkakataon para muling bumalik sa parish. Nakasama ako, kahit wala na ang mga ka-close ko doon, kahit iba na ang mga kasama ko. At kahit ganun ay nag-enjoy pa rin ako, at masaya akong nakabalik ako.

Nag-4th year kami, dumating ang Antioch, pero hindi ako nakasali. Dumating din naman ang Jazz Up, kung saan ay nakilala ko si Kuya Danes. Tinuruan niya kami ng sayaw, pati ni Kuya Joseph, at talaga namang ang saya ng experience na yun. Iba yung feeling nung nagsayaw na kami. Bukod sa hilig ko talaga ang pagsasayaw, masaya lang talaga ‘yung experience na ‘yun. Tuwang tuwa ako, at siyempre ay may mga bagong kaibigan muli. Dito ko rin nabalitaan ang tungkol sa College Group (CG), at sabi ko talaga sa sarili ko na doon ako sasali, promise talaga, sasali ako doon.

Sa 7 to 7 recollection, na-introduce sa amin ang CG. Si Kuya Danes ang coordinator ng CG ng panahong ‘yun, at si Ate Luann. Agad agad, pagkatapos ng 7 to 7 recollection ay kumuha ako ng form para makasali sa CG.

Excited ako noon, dahil alam kong makakabalik ako sa parish. Panibagong grupo, panibagong mga kaibigan, panibagong experience. Kabado ako nung unang meeting ng CG. Siyempre hindi ko kilala ang mga nandun. At sa pagkakaalala ko ay wala akong mga kakilala pa dito, or kaklase man lang nung high school. (‘Yung iba kasi, nasa Antioch pa.) Pero nakakatuwa dahil katulad ng ibang grupo sa parish, mababait ang mga Ate at Kuya doon. Doon ay nakilala ko rin sila Ate Julie, Ate Karen, Ate Xy, Ate Baby, atbp. Enjoy ang unang meeting, at sabi ko sa sarili ko, magpapaka-active na ko. Maraming mga bagong kaibigan muli ang nakilala ko sa CG. Sila ang mga lalo pang nagpapasaya ng mga meeting sa CG. Masaya akong kasama sila, masaya akong nakilala ko sila.

Marami akong na-experience sa CG. Karamihan ata sa buhay simbahan ko e nasa CG ako nung nangyari ang mga iyon. Kahit na mahirap pa rin magpaalam para pumunta ng parish, na dilemma naman ata ng karamihan, sinusubukan ko pa rin na maka-attend ng mga activities sa parish, at ng mga meeting sa CG. Kahit na hindi ako nakaka-attend ng mga retreat at camping ng CG, okay lang. Dumating din ‘yung panahon na excited akong mag-Sunday dahil alam kong may CG meeting. (Pero minsan ay kabado rin dahil iniisip ko kung ano na naman kaya ang ipapagawa sa amin. Pero exciting din naman. =P) Kakaiba ang experience habang nasa CG ako. At nitong mga panahon na ‘to saka ko na-experience ang mga gusto kong ma-experience noon; nakapag-sayaw ako sa Easter Vigil Mass, nakasali sa 7 last words, at, nakapag-facilitate ako sa Luke 18. Sobrang saya ko nung nagawa ko ‘yung mga bagay na ‘yun. Kakaiba ang feeling, kaya talaga namang thankful ako at nakilala ko ang CG. Kung hindi dahil sa CG, hindi ko magagawa ang mga bagay na ‘yun.

Bukod sa lahat ng mga meeting, activities, bagong kaibigan, at experiences, siyempre ay hindi ko rin malilimutan na sa pamamagitan ng mga grupong ito ay mas naging malapit ako kay God. Ito naman ang puno’t dulo ng lahat ng mga ginagawa namin, kaya naman kakaiba talaga ang feeling. Nag-e-enjoy ka na, nakakapag-serve ka pa kay God at pati na rin sa ibang tao.

Bakit ko nag ba sinusulat ‘to ngayon? Siguro dahil lang sa namimiss ko na ang buhay simbahan na naranasan ko noon. Oo aaminin ko, naiinggit ako sa mga kaibigan kong hanggang ngayon ay nakakapag-serve pa rin sa parish, nasa CG pa rin, o di kaya’y may handle na sila na grupo. Nakakainggit man, nakakatuwa rin, dahil kung iisipin mo, minsan ay part lang din kami ng grupong Luke 18, Antioch, CG, at ngayon ay may sarili na silang grupo na nahahandle. Hindi ko rin natupad ‘yung sinabi ko na magpapaka-active na rin ako. Hindi ko napagpatuloy. Na ngayon ay naiisip ko, sana nagawa ko. Nagsimula sa isang araw na hindi naka-attend ng meeting, hindi naka-attend ng mga activity, hanggang sa nagtuloy-tuloy na. Pero hindi naman ako umayaw, at hinding hindi ko nalimutan ang CG, hanggang sa Luke 18 na pinagmulan ko. Pati ‘yung butterfly awards na pinakahihintay ko noon hindi ko napuntahan. (‘Yung award ko... :( hahaha...) Sayang lahat, ‘no? Pero alam ko naman na may mali rin ako. Nagkulang ako, nagkulang ako sa gawa, dahil hindi ko nagawa ‘yung mga salitang binitawan ko. Bakit nga ba hindi ko na magawa ‘yung mga bagay na nagawa ko noon. Lagi ako nagtatanong kung pwede pa ba bumalik, at sinasabi rin naman nila ay oo. Oo, gusto ko, pero ngayon, gusto ko, pag nagdesisyon ako, ‘yung mapaninindigan ko na. Namimiss ko lang siguro talaga. Basta isa lang ang alam ko, masaya doon. Salamat sa kanila. Salamat sa Kanya.

:)

*this post is long over due, i've been blogging but i'm not able to post them all here..this particular post is also included in the notes section of my facebook account :)*


Have you ever had that feeling that sometimes time seems to fly by so fast, and all you’d want is to just slow things down a bit?

I’ve been feeling that way since last week I think, and this is not the first time. When I started working that was the time that I felt this way, and I kind of didn’t like it. Well, I didn’t recognize it yet at first, until later in my first few months as an ‘employee’. There were times that the days seem to end so fast, the weeks seem short, and the weekends are not enough. Well, most of the time the weekends are not enough, really. Sometimes I wish we had a four-day work week, and a 3-day weekend. That would be enough right?

If you’re busy, most of the time you won’t notice what time it is anymore. You would just be surprised that it’s already lunch time, or it’s already 5 o’clock and you’re about to go home. Time is very precious, and yet, sometimes we don’t take advantage of it or use it the way we’d want to. Time is given away freely, and it’s better if we grab the opportunity to make good use of it.
We’ll say that we don’t have any choice especially if we’re at the office and we have to stay there the whole 8 hours a day. True enough, I feel the same way. I feel like I don’t hold my own time during those 8 hours a day. That I have to spend every second, every minute, every hour in the office, in front of my computer, doing the tasks that need to be done. And waiting for time to pass by, I think that is the most ironic activity that makes time fly by so fast, and yet, also make the seconds, the minutes, the hours seem to last longer.

Usually I can’t wait for the day to be over during weekdays. That I’ll be able to get out of the office and spend some stolen moments after work. That’s the time that I try to at least make the day longer, or at least, try to slow things down a bit and make the most out of the time that I have for my own. Either I spend it alone, or I spend it with friends, or just chill out at home. It’s also a bit of a break from a daily routine that I’m sort of doing, wake up-go to work-go home from work-sleep. That’s about it. And also one of the reasons why I always think of ways to go out with friends after work, even just for a simple dinner, or a simple chat, or even just for a walk before I go home. I find it very refreshing.

Right now, I wish things would slow down a bit. I wish during the long weekend for the holy week, time would at least slow down a bit. That I’ll be able to do a lot with the time I have. Days fly by so fast. Seems like 2010 just started, and yet it’s March, nearing April already. Seems like I only started working, and yet it’s already been a year since my college graduation, and now I’m nearing my first anniversary at work. Wow. I wish there was a ‘slow motion’ button somewhere and I could use it to just slow things down a bit. Hahaha.

I don’t feel bad; it’s just that I feel like time is wasted. Especially when I’m not doing anything productive at all? I could use it for some other things that are worth the time. And another thing that I think could make more productive use of time? Creating memories. I also wish to create more memories. I just wish I could have more time for myself, for other things, and not let the opportunities just pass. Sayang e. I guess I’m wanting to do a looot of things for myself.