think rainbows

biglaan talaga, haha..
nag-text si hazel, nag-aya mag-dinner sa shakey's..
siguro mga 4pm yun..then 7pm daw yung dinner..
haha..o di ba biglaan..
ayun, text brigade sa onseh..
buti na lang masipag sa gm si aja..
6 kaming nakapunta out of 11..
kelan kaya kami ulit makukumpleto..
haha..
oh well, at least 6 kami, si dana surprise guest pa, =))
next time ulit chikas! =D

*i'll be leaving mamaya at pupunta akong antipolo..sa friday na ulit ang uwi ko..bakasyon mode sa mga tita ko, request ng mga tao, para sa pinsan ko, hahaha..and..5days left bago ako maging officially employed...am i excited or not? i don't know...haha..bahala na,,>.<*

masyado kang nag-iisip...
hindi ka pa nga nagsisimula ang dami mo nang iniisip...

okay, yan ang naririnig ko dahil dun sa recent blog post ko, haha..
oo sige na, masyado akong nag-iisip..well, totoo naman..
ang dami ko na namang iniisip..
i've got 7 days left bago ako mag-work..
bago ako maging officially employed, at bago ako magsimulang maging 'makati girl'..
nyahahahahaha...
good luck naman, mag-e-enjoy na lang ako sa remaining free days ko...
though wala ako sa bahay for most days of the week..
dadayo muna akong antipolo..

at i would just like to share this..
pinuntahan ako ni ifor dito sa bahay kanina..=D
akala ko di na siya dadating dahil ang tagal niya, haha..
buti naman dumating, he kept his promise..=D
wala naman kaming ginawa, kumain ng cheesecake na gawa ko, ahahaha..
nag-gitara, nag-internet, nag-download siya, nanuod sa youtube,,
ayun..wala lang talaga..
at nagkuwentuhan, at nagtawanan..
nakaka-miss yung araw-araw kaming nagkikita..
hayy..pero ok lang, at least nga nagkikita pa rin kami ngayon, kesa naman sa hindi diba..=D

earlier this evening, while i was at the car, ang dami ko na namang naisip..
buti na lang meron akong pen and paper so i was able to jot down what i had in mind, para hindi ko malimutan..

04/25/09 - 8:41 pm

habang papalapit ang araw ng pagsisimula ko sa work, and dami kong naiisip..

• feeling ko, ang aga ko nag-work..pero sasabihin naman ng iba, ok lang yan, at least nga daw may work na ako..
• feeling ko, dapat nag-bakasyon muna ako, as in yung out-of-town..may ginawa naman kasi dito sa bahay kaya ayun di rin kami nakaalis...buti kung payagan ako mag-isa diba..pag nag-work na ko, may sarili na kong pera, may pang-gastos na ko..pero restricted din naman ako..kasi nga may work...

march graduate ako..
may meron na akong work..
is it good or bad??
parang ang aga lang talaga..
hay, nakakainis..
bakit ba ko ganito..
feeling ko dapat di muna ako mag-work..
lahat naman kasi ng tao nakaka-pressure! di ko tuloy magawa gusto ko..
wala na, di na pwedeng mag-back out, andiyan na e..
bahala na..

ayan ang aking naisulat kanina..and i don't know what to do..pero most likely, just go with the flow, sana maging ok ang aking papasukang work..
sayang din pala hindi kami nakanuod ng aliwan festival kanina..
have to wait for next year na naman...

everything happens for a reason...

thanks to all who have been visiting yoshiko!...=D

earlier this day, me and my mom went to divisoria..
actually sa 168 kami nagpunta, to buy my pang-office na damit..(eep!)
woke up at 5:30am, in fairness gising ako agad, haha..
then left home at around 6:30am..

on our way there, wala masyadong traffic,,so medyo mabilis ang biyahe, nag-breakfast pa kami sa mcdo sa kalaw..
then nung nandun na kami sa juan luna street, dun kami na-traffic..
and while we were stuck in the traffic, i realized a lot of things..

i realized that i am very lucky..well, we, i should say, even you who is reading this post right now..
while we were there sa juan luna street, people were starting to put up their "rolling stores"/kariton na may lamang mga paninda..
imagine them arranging lahat ng paninda nila na the other day lang or yesterday lang e nandun din..
imagine kailangan nilang iligpit at ayusin lahat ng nandun araw-araw..
may nakita din akong mamang may kariton din, at ang paninda naman niya ay kape, atbp. (nakalimutan ko yung pangalan ng kariton niya..) siyempre, hindi naman buong araw e may nagkakape, ewan ko na lang yung ibang tao, pero malamang naman umaga at hapon lang ang "coffee break" di ba..
imagine yun na lang ang pinagkakakitaan niya..
yun na lang ang pinagkakakitaan nila..

habang nakikita ko tong mga bagay na to, na-realize ko, ang swerte swerte ko..ang swerte swerte natin..
may sarili kaming/tayong bahay na matutuluyan at sariling kama na matutulugan..
hindi tulad ng mga nandun na sa sidecar na lang o sa kariton sa gilid ng kalsada natutulog..

may malaking opportunity na nag-aantay para sa'min ni kuya o para sa'tin, lalo na sa'ting mga bagong graduate para makahanap ng magandang trabaho na makakatulong sa atin at sa pamilya natin..
hindi tulad ng mga nandun na pinagtiyatiyagaan ang init at dumi sa kalsada para lang may maipangkain sila ngayong araw na 'to..

these little things that are sometimes left unappreciated should really be thanked for..
we are lucky na binigyan tayo ng mas magaang buhay kesa sa kanila..
we are lucky na nandito tayo sa kung nasaan tayo ngayon..
maswerte tayo..
kaya dapat, magpasalamat tayo..

Thank you po sa Inyo, for everything...
Thank you bro,=D

okay, finally, i've decided on a final layout for my blog, haha..

final na talaga to, promise..=D

later, i'll be going sa sss para sa aking sss number,,
OMG, magwowork na ko talaga, wala nang atrasan to, hahaha..
at tulad nga ng sabi ko, parang natatakot ako, pero the hell with that, kailangan ko mag-work, and siguro naman magiging okay din ako sa work na papasukin ko..
hopefully the people are okay, para mas madali diba, haha..

oh well, good luck sa'kin, good luck sa lahat ng magwowork, good luck sa mga naghahanap ng work..=D

*post from my wordpress blog before*

being single for 20 years of your life, then suddenly seeing hope that you might not be single anymore after 20 years of your life, is such a drastic change for a simple girl like me..it's something that I've long been wanting to have, something that I've long been waiting for to happen, and yet, I'm scared..
I'm scared to fall, and be hurt once more..
I'm scared to give someone my heart, and have it broken by him..
I'm scared to love, i guess that's what I'm trying to say..
I'm just scared...but I'm not closing any doors..

I'm not blind to the fact that someday, someone might really like me, and court me, and love me, and eventually be my first ever boyfriend in my entire life..I'm actually praying for it to happen, at the right time, even though I'm so dying for it to happen already..
just the thought of me having a boyfriend, having someone who wouldn't be bored to listen to what i have been doing all day, kind of lifts my spirits and gives me more hope to hold on, and not give up on the chances of finding the right guy for me..
and it happens..it really does..in the most unexpected way..

when you're unguarded, when you're least expecting it, it will happen..
then, you'll be excited, you'll be so *kilig*, and you can't wait to tell your girlfriends all about it..see what it does to you..it makes you happy..it excites you..it brightens up your day..but when you think about it, deeply, it's not always good at times..

when i started liking someone again, this time, i hoped, he liked me too,,i hoped he felt the same way..it was hard to tell even through his actions..even though it wasn't the normal friendly moves, still, i didn't want to expect..
by patiently waiting, eventually, i found out that he felt the same way as i did.."if i will court you, will it be ok?";"can i? can i court you?" those were the words i so clearly remember..i couldn't believe my ears..and there i was, so happy, so excited..i was smiling all the time,,and i told my friends about it at once..it was something new, and it was something i have waited all my life to happen! it feels so good inside...finally! i thought at first it was just too good to be true..but it was..it really is happening..and then there came the bad part..i had doubts..i had so many questions in mind..why did he fall for me? why did he like me? why me?? so many questions, and luckily, he gave answers to all the interrogations..

that was the time that i realized, am i afraid to fall in love? is it really hard for me to trust someone? it's like i didn't want to believe that it really is happening..because i didn't think i was good enough to be a girlfriend..or i didn't think that someone was gonna court me or like me at that time..i just really can't believe in everything that was happening..i guess he really was serious about it 'cause he answered all my questions, and never gave up on me..even if i was so much in doubt, with him, and with my feelings, he was so good to have helped me by telling me that it's ok, and that he understands everything (since it's me first time, sheesh), and by answering all the questions that bothered me for quite some time..

it really does happen, doesn't it..just like what they say, don't wait for it, it will just come to you..i didn't think that was true..i believed that you have to do something for it to happen..but it happened, without me doing anything..it happened, so unexpectedly that i couldn't believe that it was already right in front of me..the wait paid off..it was so worth it, and until now, even though two months have passed, i still can't believe at times that i have him in my life, and that the one piece of the puzzle that was once missing have now been found..and he was just right in front of me..just there, waiting, waiting for me to recognize it,,waiting for me to see that it really could happen, to me..

*post from my wordpress blog before*

it's been two months since i became officially part of the non-nbsb clique..i am not a No-Boyfriend-Since-Birth-girl anymore..i know it's been two months and yet it's like i really haven't thought of the whole thing, the whole picture..i know I'm not single anymore, or I'm in a relationship already, but i really haven't looked deeper than that..

i've gone thru a lot before i came to that point when i finally decided that i was to enter a relationship for the very first time in my 20 years of existence..20 years of waiting is long enough i think? i know, i know, there are some that have been waiting for the rest of their lives to find that one person who would change their lives drastically..i guess i'm just one of the lucky few who have found that one person early in my life..

i had my crushes way back during elementary, and during high school, and even in college, i have my fair share of *papables*..it was in high school when everyone was having their suitors, they were receiving Blue Magic paper bags during Christmas (i was so bitter about it then 'cause i have always wanted to receive a gift in a Blue Magic paper bag! but thanks to chinky, i'm not so bitter about it anymore, =P), bouquet of flowers during Valentine's day, and yet there was none for me..not even one came up to me and asked me for my number, or if they could court me, or at least just wanted to be friends with me..none..i was so jealous with my friends who had their suitors help them carry their bags, or at least accompany them during dismissal, or during recess/lunch..and yet there was still none for me..there were my guy friends, but of course guy friends are so much different with suitors/boyfriends..but then again, i thought, my time will come..not now..but hopefully soon..I'm not that typical type of girl-next-door that most guys really like..and i guess that explains it all, i tell myself..

i tried to find ways on how i could be closer to them, my "crushes",,thinking that at least, even if they don't like me, at least we could be friends..but still, maybe because of the "trend" that's going on, that most guys want those pretty girl-next-door type of girls as their friends, and later on, as their girlfriends, still, i couldn't convince them that hey, i'm pretty too! maybe not so pretty outside, but very much beautiful inside..my plan worked, for quite some time..i was sort of close to one, but still it wasn't enough..still, it didn't work out..still, i failed..
because of all that happened, when i entered college, i told myself, if i have a crush, that's it, just a crush, i won't be too assuming or i won't expect too much from it..i know, i'm not blessed with good looks, but definitely i'm blessed with good friends, good upbringing, and most importantly, i could be a very good friend..but it's not enough..i enjoy their company, we go out a lot, i have fun with them, talk about anything under the sun with my friends, but still, something's missing..

there's still a part of my life that hasn't been created yet..and I'm dying to make it happen..if i could just do anything, anything at all, i would do it, just so that i could be able to experience that one thing everyone's so hyped up and about...falling in love...being in love...

and being loved in return...the most important for me i think..to know that someone loves me the way i love him..a love that's not just as a friend..or as a brother..or sister..a love between two persons so different from each other, and yet, they can't wait to see each other the next day even though they've spent a whole day together already..

AGAIN, the same thing happened...i had a crush,,and eventually i liked him a lot, and i felt like am i falling for him already? am i in love with him? in love? i think not..but then again, i want to see him everyday..i want him to talk to me, even though there's nothing to talk about..then what am i feeling? this is why i don't like it when i'm liking someone so much..it's so hard to determine if i like him, or if i'm in love with him..how do you tell if you're in love? how will you tell if you only like the person??
then there will be this one person, who will make you fall for him..he has his ways of making you so vulnerable to him..and yet, you will realize, you're such a fool for falling for him..

there are those good times, there are bad times..but still, you can't just ignore the fact that as long as you have a heart, as long as you're still breathing, you will, still, fall, again..and again..
there would be that one person, who would unexpectedly show up right in front of you..and again, you would fall..and again, you would hope and pray, that this time, it would work out just fine...

*post from my wordpress blog before*

I can't believe you're here with me
And now it seems my world's complete
And I never want this moment to end
I close my eyes and still I see
My dreams become reality
And now I know how it feels to be in love
I prayed so many nights that you would come my way
An angel from above to light my darkest day
I think it's time for you to hear these lines
'Cos there's something I want to say

I finally found what I've been looking for
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
(It's always been you)
To think that you were always there (always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
Now it's clear that it's always been you

Sometimes you don't expect that friends
Can become lovers in the end
Only God knows what the future will bring
So hold me close and don't let go
'Cos this is love boy, don't you know?
And we're gonna be together for eternity
I prayed so many nights that you would come my way
An angel from above to light my darkest day
A love so strong it can't be wrong
It's with you that I belong

I finally found what I've been looking for (finally found)
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
(It's always been you)
To think that you were always there ( you were always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
Now it's clear that it's always been you (you)

(This time) this time
I'm gonna make sure it turns out right
I wanna be your everything and by your side
For the rest of my life
(This love)
This love feels the way that love should be
Look in my eyes and realise there's no disguise
'Cos I'm in love with you

I finally found what I've been looking for
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
To think that you were always there (you were always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
(Wipe away my tears)
Now it's clear that it's always been you
(It's always been you)

I finally found what I've been looking for (I finally found)
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold (oh) me tight 'cos it's always been you
(It's always been you)
To think that you were always there (don't you know?)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears (oh baby)
Now it's clear that it's always been you
(Always been you, yeah yeah)

I finally found what I've been looking for (I finally found it)
And now you know I'm going to love you more
(Yeah, I finally found it)
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
(It's always been you oh)
To think that you were always there (what I been looking for)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
(What I been looking for)
Now it's clear that it's always been you
(Always always)

*i love this song*

*post from my wordpress blog before*

*okay, i just really have to blog before i study, haha..*

if there's a first time, for sure there'll be a second time! haha..

so last january 13 was our first movie together..and earlier today, we watched our second movie! haha..it wasn't planned or anything, i just really wanted to watch Bride Wars at a movie house, so ayun, i got my wish! haha..

and of course, i get to have some alone time with him as well..that's actually the best part of watching a movie with him, hahaha...

anyway, Bride Wars was nice, a must-see movie..i really like Anne Hathaway, i dunno i just think she's great..=D

oh well, another happy day i guess..=D

*post from my wordpress blog before*


i've got lots of happy days, haha..but today's extraordinary..

went to school earlier to pay for my tuition..HE was there too..(siyempre!hahaha) then after i paid for my tuition, we went to SM..

actually,ako ang nag-aya to watch a movie..wala lang, naisip ko kasi mahaba ung break, so pwede kami mag-movie, e wala na palang pasok, pero xmpre we still pursued with the movie..

then ayun, we watched Bedtime Stories..ok lang naman siya, simple, it was ok..before we watched, i bought Dunkin Donuts, dahil hindi ako nabilhan ni mama the other day..actually nakalaimutan niya somewhere ung donuts, so nabitin ako, kaya kumain na ko kanina, hahaha..

then ayun, we watched the movie..i was so happy the whole time..*kilig*

hahaha..i sort of don't want to put in more details pa..all i know is masaya ako the whole time we watched the movie..mas nag-enjoy pa ko na kasama ko siya kesa dun sa panunuod ng movie, hahaha..

then after the movie, ikot onti..i bought Winx magazines pala for my pamangkin..then ayun, we went home na..i bought corn pa pala, sarap, haha..then daan kami sa church..tapos ayun, hinatid niya ko sa lawton..at xmpre, may goodbye kiss...kakaibang goodbye kiss..bago..hahaha..

wala lang..di naman halatang masaya ako no? hahaha..
tawa ako ng tawa..=D well ganun tlga..=D

such a happy day...=D

*post from my wordpress blog before*

it's our 2nd month anniversary..=D (i didn't use monthsary, since there isn't really a word such as monthsary..right?=P)

i thought he wouldn't call or wouldn't greet me, because i thought he was already asleep..*he didn't reply to my last text message so i thought he was already asleep*

luckily, he was still awake..and he called me, around past 12 midnight..just in time for January 11..since it's a sunday, we won't be able to see each other..aww..and besides, some of my classmates are here, to do some school stuff..so he couldn't come over..

of course the day wouldn't be complete because we won't be able to see each other..but still, i'm happy that it's "our day"..right? well, actually, that's what he calls it, "our day"..anyway..so he called, and we talked for like an hour to an hour and a half..

i feel happy..at least i got to talk to him..and at least we started the day by talking to each other..the other night, i was thinking of so many things..as in..some concerns, some things, some stuff, etc.

but earlier, while i was talking to him, i was thinking of those things that i was thinking the other night..and i just thought, as long as he's there for me, as long as i have him, everything's gonna be alright...right? haha..

it's like why am i thinking of so many things, when all i have and where i am really is right here, right now..
and why am i thinking of all those things, when all i really have to think about, is where we are right now, and how we are right now,,

so that's it, i just hope i could go on smoothly with everything..i hope everything will work out just fine...

my biggest enemy really, is myself...

*post from my wordpress blog before*

a day of firsts...well that is at least for me, haha..

i had my first ever valentino..
spent my first ever valentine's..(i mean, like, you know, with your "special someone"...=P)
AND...received my first ever bouquet of roses...=)

i started the day normally..just like how i would spend an ordinary day..but this day isn't ordinary..it's valentine's day! happy heart's day! =D

you see girls or guys bringing with them flowers, be it one or a bouquet,,you see heart-shaped balloons, stuffed toys, and the like..i also received a number of text messages greeting me "Happy Valentine's Day" or "Happy Heart's Day"..you also hear some others saying that it's singles' awareness month,,,hahaha...since i'm not part of that celebration anymore, i guess february 14 isn't supposed to be ordinary for me..=P

actually, i was really excited for my classmate, because his girlfriend prepared a surprise for him and we were the accomplices, haha..but as for my own celebration, or experience, or happening, or whatever you wanna call it, i didn't really expect anything..i learned from my mistakes, that's why i don't like expecting anymore..i'm a HOPEful person now, haha..anyway, going back, i really didn't think much of what's gonna happen, or if he's gonna give me anything..well of course i'm hoping that he would give me at least a bouquet of roses,because he knows how much i'd love to receive one...

all day, he wasn't texting..i just let it go since it's no biggie really..until the time for our class (where we had a quiz) came, and still he was a no-show..but i thought he wouldn't miss class 'cause he knows well that we have a quiz..so i just thought, maybe he'll arrive a little later..when our professor arrived, i got kind of nervous..weird actually, really weird, hahaha..well actually, i was thinking, he might do something, a surprise maybe, but i tried not to think about it really, but still i got nervous, haha..then when he entered the room, he entered at the back door, i actually didn't want to look at the back, because if he was bringing flowers, i wouldn't want to see it yet, so that i'll be really surprised,=P but i couldn't help it, i looked at the back, and i saw him holding in his hand a bouquet..i just smiled, while my classmates teased me, and him, even our professor noticed it, haha..

while we were having the quiz, to tell you guys honestly, i was thinking about him, and those flowers, hahaha..i was just excited really..and very much happy...and i can't wait to finish the exam and have my bouquet, hahaha...then the time came, we finished the quiz, we were dismissed, and then at the corridor, he gave me the flowers..



the flowers were really nice...i sooooooooo love it..haha..
but seriously, i really liked the flowers..=)



after that, we went and stayed at the main field..we saw that there was gonna be a fireworks display so we just waited for it..and luckily for us, we were able to watch a free fireworks display,,haha..*sakit sa leeg,=P*



'twas a really nice day..
'twas a really sweet night..
my day had a really nice ending..
thanks again for the flowers..

thank you very very very much...
*xoxo*

he hasn't been texting all day..
ang alam ko, wala siyang load, so sana nga hindi siya nagtetext dahil lang sa wala siyang load..
at sana hindi siya galit..
coz i was supposed to call him yesterday night, kaso nagloko yung sun, na-late yung dating ng text niya, hindi ako nakatawag..=(
hopefully we're okay..

question...

do you guys know of any good site that caters to blogger tools?
i want to look for more tools for my blogger...

currently, i am beautifying my blog, hahaha..

if that's what you call it..
i think im satisfied with blogger already, at least i could add the features that i want to, which i cannot do with wordpress or tumblr..

now, how do i delete my wordpress or tumblr account??

i am a blogger! haha..

hopefully this blogger account satisfies me enough to not find any other blog hosting site...=D