think rainbows

I haven't really been able to blog yet about one of the biggest decisions I've made earlier this year. Maybe in my previous posts I've hinted about it, but this time, it has really happened. I've resigned from work. My last day was March 16. I've been thinking about doing it since last year, and so once I decided, there was no turning back. I have been with the company for almost three years, and I'm thankful in a way for the experiences and especially for the people I've met.

Why did I do it? Because I wanted change, as simple as that. I was starting to look for something different. I'm still trying to figure out what it is, but I still haven't found it. I am happy though that now I have the time to create a different chapter in my life story. I don't know where I'll be headed next, but I'm hoping for the better. I've learned a lot of things that I know I would be able to use in my succeeding endeavors.

I feel like there's always not enough vacation, and so we just have to be content with what we're given. It is a blessing to have the time to relax, to be away from stress, and just let things be. So as I figure out my next step, as I'm nearing the end of this temporary bum life, the feeling of wanting to go on but needing to stop arises. And so as not be saddened, I have to be content, accept the things that have to happen, and just enjoy everything that life has in store.

There is fear in me, because of not knowing where I should be going. That I might not be able to do what I want to do, or it's not something that I'd love. Right now I'm trying to conquer the fear and replace it with excitement; clear my mind so as to be able to see the horizon. I always think that things happen for a reason even though the reason may be unknown. I turn to Him for help because I know He knows what's best for me. In all the decisions that I make, I seek for His help and guidance. Because at the end of the day, it'll still be Him to whom I turn to.

I started this bum life with a vacation at our province in Mindoro, and now I am ending it there as well. All I wish is that we enjoy this trip once again. Even better than the first one. And that it would make me ready for whatever I'll be facing once we get back in Manila.

So here's my thoughts about today's performances...


Hollie Cavanagh 
Rolling in the Deep
One of her better performances, could even be the best for me.
Son of a Preacher Man
I think she found her confidence already. She seems different on stage and yeah this was kind of better than her first song.

Colton Dixon 
Bad Romance
Rockin' performance as always!
September
I get what the judges were saying that it wasn't as exciting as they would've expected of Colton but I liked his arrangement. And it always gets to me when he does that stare right at the camera. Swoon.

Elise Testone 
No One
Just an okay performance.
Let's Get It On
There was just a lot of things going on. Just another okay performance. I'm thinking she might be in the bottom again.

Phillip Phillips 
U Got It Bad
Goosies all over. Right on J.Lo, that was sexy!
In the Midnight Hour
Oh yes, Phil, more please? Another great performance!

Jessica Sanchez 
Fallin'
Awesome. What more to say? I just love hearing Jessica sing.
Try a little tenderness
Goosies for Ms.Sanchez this time! And it was a bit of Haley Reinhart I heard right there. C'mon Jessica, give them that moment again! (I'm a bit nervous for her though, I wish she doesn't end in the bottom again.)

Skylar Laine 
Born This Way
Really good arrangement, she did great for her first song!
Heart it Through the Grapevine
It was another good performance from Skylar but I didn't feel anything special with it.

Joshua Ledet 
I Believe
I got goosies! Usually doesn't happen with Joshua but he did really good with this song. Not much screaming and all that. I liked it.
A Change is Gonna Come
There he goes again. He's good, but I really don't like all the over the top screaming and everything.

Round 1 winner: Phillip/Jessica/Skylar/Joshua (can't choose!)
Round 2 winner: Phillip

Most Improved Award: Hollie
Underperformer Award: Elise
Most likely to be in the bottom Award: Elise
Achiever Award: Phillip
Biggest hair award: Jessica (lol, just had to add that)

Let's wait and see tomorrow who goes home!

I have been wanting to blog about American Idol's performance shows but it's only now that I'm actually going to be able to do it. These are just my opinions, simple opinions from an avid watcher of the show for I am no professional singer or whatever. So I'm going to be telling you about what I think of each singer in general, and then what I think of their recent performance.

I did not fully understand what the theme was but from what I heard from Ryan Seacrest, they chose songs from 2010 up to now. That's a loooooooooot of songs to choose from. They also got Akon as this week's mentor. Okay, on to the show.