think rainbows

*blogging just for the purpose of blogging*

I really have nothing to say, I just thought I’d want to post something today. How’s the world been? How are you? Yes, you, the one reading this blog. HAHAHA. Is it so obvious that I really can’t write anything sensible here right now? Hay.

Anyway, today’s Thursday, which means that tomorrow’s gonna be Friday! (yeah, as if that wasn’t really obvious) Well of course I’m excited, it’s the last day of the week! And there’s gonna be a birthday celebration at the office after office hours so that’s gonna be great, I get to see my friends over there at LBP. (LBP/Landbank is where the other Tera office is located, it's in Pedro Gil i think; wish I was located there, hahaha.) And I get to go to work later than the usual. (err, hopefully? haha)

I’m so bored at the office. I can’t talk to anybody, as in real talk, you know, speak. HAHAHA. That sounds weird. I’m so quiet at the office, I’m not used to it, really. Everything’s just through chat, we only speak from time to time, hahaha. And that chat is just through local network, we don't have Internet, BOO! Actually, I wrote this blog while at the office. Because I wasn’t in the mood yet to work, so I just wrote this blog. And besides, I’m almost done with what I’m doing, so I just let the time pass and do what I need to do a bit later so that I’ll have something to do until my time out.

This weekend, Ifor will be going to Boracay. (together with his mom and his mom’s officemates, and his sister) I’m so freakin’ jealous! Hahaha. Alex, a college classmate, will be going to Boracay as well! (together with his officemates) I wish I could have some time to go out of town as well. Preferably with my friends, so that it’ll be more fun, but if not, my family would be just as perfect as well. I just want some relax time too. And a good out of town trip would be perfect! Tagaytay would do! And besides, it’s the nearest that we could go to, that would still be a nice out of town trip. I wonder when I’ll be able to do that. Hopefully soon. And what sucks more with Ifor’s trip to Boracay, is that there’s no signal there, which means I won’t be able to talk to him, for 2-3 days. Ugh, not cool. Though I asked him for pasalubong, hahaha. But still, I got used to talking to him everyday! Oh well, I’ll just have to make tiis for 2-3 days. GOOD LUCK. >.<

*I had a bad dream, well, not really super bad, but still, it wasn’t a good dream. I wonder why I dreamt about that, tsktsktsk. Oh well, IT’S JUST A DREAM.*

*this post is just a spur of the moment post; i just want to share my September 11*

'Twas our 10th month anniversary. Yay for us! At least we're going a sort of long way already, and i'm really happy about that, and our relationship is really so far so good! Kahit na we don't always see each other, we still get to talk everyday, and we still get to keep our relationship going strong.

After more than 2 weeks of not seeing each other, (i know, matagal!) we decided that we meet up on the day of our monthsary. Just to celebrate the day together, and especially to see each other. Supposedly we were to meet up early but due to some unprecedented or unwanted circumstances, we weren't able to. I was starting to get pissed, but, i just thought, oh well, at least we're still gonna see each other. And voila! when he arrived, i couldn't help but smile. I just can't stop smiling! Even though i told myself i was to act as if i'm so pissed at him. I guess i just missed him too badly already.

So we went to MOA, as usual, and we ate, walked around, the usual stuff that we do. We just spent time together, and we're already happy like that. At least we're together right? And we felt how much we missed each other. We didn't even notice that it was already getting late, and it was time to go home already.

When i arrived home, there was a surprise for me. There's this notebook where we write some letters for each other, and i wrote something for him, and then he gave it back but i didn't want to have it. Then that's why he didn't want to take it too, because he wrote something there for me, while i was playing dance maniax. =D

The letter/message was simple, but very very meaningful and sweet. It meant a lot to me, kahit ilang lines lang yun and kahit simple lang talaga siya. Natuwa talaga ako. And, as i've told him, at the end of the day, he still made my day, he still made me happy, and he made me sleep smiling, for real! 'Twas really sweet. =D

I love him so much! That i'm very sure of.
And...i miss him already. ♥

Today is September 9, 2009. 09-09-09.
How was your day?
Obviously, it’s been a while since my last blog post, and I just think it’s about time that I create a new one. For a lot has happened already since then.

Event #1:
August 26, 2009 was ifor’s 23rd birthday. Nothing special really, he wasn’t even sure if he were to celebrate it or not. I mean, you know, have a small celebration at home, invite friends and family over, nothing fancy, just to be able to celebrate his birthday. I thought he was seriously not going to celebrate it anymore, but he changed his mind. Besides, I was persistent that he change his mind, that he have a celebration, even just a small one, haha. He decided to do it the Sunday after his birthday, since that was a long weekend because Monday was declared a holiday. But before that, I was also persistent that we see each other on his birthday; just because it’s his birthday, and of course I want to greet him in person. Not just thru text or a phone call, I want it to be in person. And of course, I wanted to see him, hahaha. Anyway, he wasn’t also sure of that, because of some “unavoidable” circumstances. But still, we or rather he was able to make it happen. We were still able to see each other on the day of his birthday, and he was even wearing the t-shirt I gave him! =D He thought that I was going to give him something, that’s why I was so persistent that we meet up. But even before we met up, he already got his gift. I asked a friend/classmate of ours (who happened to be very very nice to agree, thanks Raged!!) if he could give it to him, because at least, even if we won’t be able to meet up, he would still get his gift on the day of his birthday. =D We did nothing special really, sabi nga niya, parang the usual na pagkikita lang namin. Well it didn’t matter, and I didn’t mind, because at least, I saw him, I was able to greet him; we were still able to at least celebrate his birthday. But, there’s a big BUT. I asked for permission from my parents if I could go to his birthday celebration at their house, of course. Unfortunately, they didn’t approve of it, or rather my mom, initially, didn’t really approve of it. And told me, na isama ko daw si kuya kung gusto ko talaga magpunta. And that’s what my dad also told me, if I wanted to go, isama ko daw si kuya. I was just so disappointed upon hearing that, I even cried, haha. It’s just that, it’s just a birthday party. And I know na may lakad si kuya that Sunday kaya baka hindi niya rin ako masamahan, so it ended up na hindi ako makakapunta. They’re so traditional really. AS IN. well, siyempre I couldn’t do anything but just say yes. Who am I na magreklamo pa, mag-away lang kami, sabi nga ni Ifor, baka daw sa pagpipilit ko pati sa kanya magalit parents ko, and we might even end up breaking up. So I just let it pass, and I was very very apologetic to Ifor, because I know he wants me to be there, as much as I want to be there as well. And I was very sad as well.

Event #2:
Adding to that sadness from knowing that I won’t be able to go to Ifor’s birthday celebration, last August 28, 2009, something happened, something tragic and very sad. My paternal grandmother died that Friday morning. (My dad’s mom, and the only grandparent I have left) It was very very shocking because it was so sudden, and just the Wednesday before that, my mom was with her, and the Sunday before that, we were with her because the Sunday before that was her daughter’s (my tita’s) birthday celebration. And there wasn’t any hint that that event would happen. I woke up that Friday morning, made a call to my mom, and right then and there she told me that lola Inang was gone. Namumugto pa mga mata ko that morning from crying the day before, which nahalata pala ni mama, hahaha. Anyway, it was just so sad, I wasn’t in the mood to go to work anymore but I still did, nag-half day na lang ako. And we spent the rest of the days (for the wake) going back and forth from Las Piñas to Bulacan, and vice versa. (wala kasi kaming matutulugan sa Bulacan kaya we have to go home rin) I didn’t go to work during the whole wake up to the day that she was buried. But, the nice thing there, me and my cousins were able to have our bonding times.

Event #3:
But, the nice thing there, me and my cousins were able to have our bonding times. September 2 happened to be one of my cousin’s birthday, and so we had a little celebration for her, my dad bought ice cream and there was also a cake for her. And speaking of my dad, he was able to come home for his mom’s wake and burial. My dad’s two other brothers were also able to come home, so it was a little family reunion as well. And then, September 3, was my other cousin’s birthday. That was the day of the burial. After the burial, when we were all home, my cousin invited us to dinner, at SM Marilao Shakey’s (with the very entertaining kuya there, I wasn’t able to remember his name, haha). And so we went there, puro bata, cousins only, haha. It was good na rin because of course everyday we were there at my lola’s wake, it was tiring too, we were all not able to sleep well, and at least we were able to sort of unwind a bit after a tiring week (especially for me, kuya, and mama!). We also had some Kodak moments after the burial, and even at the church. (the one in the church was really weird)

I used that title because all of these events were really unexpected. Right?
And of course just a little update of what has happened after my last blog post.
*looking forward to Friday! yay!*

Nonoy’s running for the Presidential position, are you going to vote for him?
I think I would. =P

Finally, finally a new post! After all the buzzing about a former president's death, about some new great movies, about some new happenings, here I am, blogging again.

First of all, I want to share to all of you, I was at Cory's funeral as well. I already saw the cortege but I still went to her funeral at the Manila Memorial Park. Well, we were there even just for the truck carrying her remains. My mom, tito, and tita were there early morning, at around 9am, and me and my brother followed them at around lunch time. 'Twas an adventure really, haha. When we arrived at the Manila Memorial Park, there were a loooooot of people already outside. Nakipagsiksikan na lang kami para makaabot hanggan dun sa may gate. People weren't really letting us through, saying that they've been there for hours already, and that we shouldn't force ourselves into the front. Kung sila nga daw hindi makapasok, kami pa daw kaya. E may mga kasama nga kami sa loob, buti na lang hindi ako nagtaray sa kanila, haha. Then we waited inside the Manila Memorial until around 8:30pm when the funeral procession finally arrived. Then we just watched the rites on the big screen placed inside the Manila Memorial Park. And of course, there were a loooooot of people. Luckily when we went home there was no traffic.

What else could I write here? hmm..
Me and Ifor celebrated our 9th monthsary last August 11.♥
Actually, before we celebrated that, we weren't okay, well, he wasn't okay with me, haha. Because I did something stupid, but not intentionally, promise! I was kinda nervous when the 11th came, because we were going to meet up and I wasn't sure if he's okay already,or how we're gonna spend the day together if he's not yet okay. Fortunately, kind of showing me how much he loved me as well (cheesy! haha), I really didn't have to do anything just for him to be okay. And that made my day. Plus the fact that he really looked good that night, or I just really did miss him a lot. HAHAHA.

Haven't watched The Proposal yet, but I really really really want to see it! and also My Sister's Keeper. I've watched Up though, and it was really very very cute, haha. It was sweet, very touching, and very fun to watch. And we watched it on 3D! haha. Watched it with Ifor yesterday, the 'terno day'. He wore violet too because I was going to wear a violet shirt, and when we met up, he was wearing his white rubber shoes, and I was wearing my white sandals, those weren't on purpose, hahaha. We just enjoyed the day together, we even saw his tita, cousin, and sister there at SM Marikina. Yes, we met up at SM Marikina, far right? haha. Then we went to my tita's place in Antipolo, actually it's just near Masinag, because I was going to stay there for the night. Just arrived home tonight actually.

And some bad news, well, for me and some other OTH fans. Hilarie and Chad won't be playing Peyton and Lucas anymore for OTH's season 7. It SUCKS, big time! What would OTH be without them?! Urgh. Oh well, I haven't seen yet the characters who would be replacing them. But still, I like the original Lucas and Peyton. After their super sweet moments in season 6 and now they're gone for season 7?! tsktsktsk. I just hope OTH will still be as worth watching as when Hilarie and Chad were there. Because for sure it would be super different, than the previous seasons.

BTW, i've got a twitter account already, haha.
And still one party to go to tomorrow night, in West Ave., my tita and tito's double birthday celebration.
Hope it would be fun.
And another thing, his birthday's coming up! =D
And soon we'll be in double digits already.=D

Good night. IMYA ♥
:)

yes, i was there..
i can say that i was there..
i was standing at the corner of gil puyat and chino roces avenues, waiting for the cortege of former president corazon aquino to pass by gil puyat avenue..
i saw something that could be part of history once again..

i was thinking twice if i was going to go out of the office to go and see the cortege itself, because i have work, and hindi ako pwedeng lumabas ng matagal because it wasn't part of the break..but it was just near (gil puyat/buendia), i just have to walk a bit under the heat of the sun, and i can see it clearly..
and wala namang makakapansin, i just had to be quick..

i was watching the live streaming, that was anc i think,,the last i heard was that the cortege was already at ayala avenue..and then after that, i didn't know where it was anymore, so i thought maybe it already passed by, maybe i'm not going to see it anymore, maybe i just have to watch the news when i get home..
maybe,,

then i heard an interview with makati mayor jejomar binay and he said that the tail end of the procession was nasa may RCBC pa..so i told myself, okay, i'm going out, bahala na kung may abutan ako o wala..i really didn't mind walking kahit ang init sa labas..
while i was walking toward gil puyat, i saw a man run toward gil puyat,,i was thinking of running too because i thought maybe the cortege is already there,,at baka hindi ko abutan..but i didn't of course...instead i just did some brisk walking, and prayed na sana may abutan ako, kahit yung likod lang ng truck na sinasakyan ng remains ni cory okay na, basta may abutan lang ako..may makita lang ako..

and i made it,,
the cortege was just about to pass by..i was going to be able to see the whole procession..
the procession was slowed down maybe because of all the people in the middle of the street waiting and wishing to have a last glimpse of the former president before she is brought to the manila cathedral today, and laid to rest on wednesday..
the procession was lead by police cars, and a small truck playing a song that i don't know the title of,,the truck was also full of people in yellow flashing the 'laban' sign and carrying some flags bearing ninoy's face..there were also some walking in front of the procession carrying the 'atom' flags..


then i saw some of cory's relatives, mikee cojuangco was there, as well as one of mikee's sisters, then i also saw james yap and a guy that i think is the husband of one of cory's daughters..people were flashing the laban sign, and confetti was being poured over gil puyat avenue as cory's remains passed by..people were also shouting and calling on cory as if telling her that 'cory, we're here for you'..people were also waving yellow ribbons and some that were formed like a 'pom-pom'...
the truck where cory was, was so full of beautiful flowers..white and yellow flowers adorned the truck around cory's casket..
(and there were also representatives from the marines, the navy, the military, and the air force..)
then the truck was followed by coasters carrying the rest of cory's family and friends..
people, in their own ways, tried to honor at least for the last time, the former president, who has done wonders for this country..
as for me, all i could say was, farewell, cory, rest in peace, thank you...


as the truck passed by in front of me, i had goosebumps, and i was so overwhelmed because for a fact, a former president is there, in front of me..well, literally, her coffin bearing her remains was in front of me, but still she's there..a president that became president even before i was born.,a woman who fought bravely for her people..for the country's freedom, for democracy..i was watching a cory special last night in abs-cbn and all i could say while watching the show was 'wow, ang tapang tapang niya'..
saying that she really is so great would i think be an understatement...
it was like i was able to see and feel for myself a small glimpse of how the EDSA revolution in 1986 was...

and while the truck passed by among us all there along gil puyat avenue, while confetti was being showered upon cory, a strong wind blew, and then it was gone..as if it was cory saying thank you to everyone..the sun also hid for a moment while cory passed by, as if mourning with all the people along the streets for the loss of such a great and wonderful woman..


well i could say that i was able to see cory..i was able to see a president..
sadly, it was cory's,the former president's cortege..
it would have been better if it was really her in person, waving at you, smiling, flashing the laban sign probably,,
but it wasn't..
it was time for her to leave,,she has done all that she could for our country, for us all..
she has done a lot...
she was done with her mission..
now she is needed up there,,
she will look down upon us all, and for sure she will still continue praying for us all, and for peace in this country,,

thank you, cory, thank you for all that you've done for the filipino people, and for the entire country..

thank you for being an inspiration, a model, a great leader,,
thank you just for being a wonderful person..
you've touched the hearts and the lives of many, and forever you will never be forgotten..

*i wasn't able to take pictures of the cortege, i left my phone at the office, i don't know why i didn't bring it with me*

*random thoughts*

just the other day, i thought, maybe everything really happens for a reason.
kasi whenever there's something not good that is happening, i usually tell myself, 'ok lang yan, everything happens for a reason'..i even use/tell this line to my friends.
and, as i've said, just the other day, i told myself this line again.
why?
coz i've been thinking again about my present struggle..actually it's not that of a big deal i think, but to me it still is, coz it's not really easy for me...or i'm really not yet that used to it.
anyway..
i've been thinking again about how me and ifor are so far away from each other, that we don't get to spend that much time together,,and how time runs so fast whenever we're together! (haha)
and then that's when i thought, maybe everything really happens for a reason..
and, whenever God gives you problems or challenges, He gives them to you because He knows you can survive it, right?
so I thought as well, maybe He gave me this challenge because He knows well that I can survive it..
i mean, think about it, we can see each other anytime we want, i mean, we're legal at home, we're legal at their place, wala namang problema pag nagpapaalam ako na siya ang kasama ko. kilala din naman siya nila mama..but the problem is our distance, and some other circumstances, that's why we can't really spend a lot of time together that much,,
while for others, they're not legal, but they're so near each other, and can see each other anytime they want as well, maybe even everyday! but not freely, you know, it's limited, or something.
and of course it gave me a good feeling again that, well, yeah, i can survive this, i can be stronger than this, than what i am right now..
ako lang din naman ang nagpapaisip sa sarili ko, i know, pero i just can't help but not think about it..
well yeah, okay, at least we get to see each other at least once a week..
actually nagugulat nga ang mga tao, pag nalalaman nila na siya taga-marikina, and ako las piñas pa..
ang hirap daw siguro nun...haynako, kung alam lang nila! hahaha...
so, there, naisip ko na lang ulit, everything happens for a reason..and it helps me e, i mean thinking about this quote, it helps to stop thinking about certain stuff..
what we have right now or what's happening right now has a reason, i may not know what the reason is, pero it has a reason for sure..
and may point nga rin sila, na baka nga masyado kayong magkasawaan pag super dalas niyo magkasama, kaso kulang pa rin yung once a week e, hahaha..=P ok lang sana kung once a week tapos whole day, e kaso hindi e..minsan lang ung whole day e, =P (dapat kasi parehas na lang kaming marikina, or LP, haha)
but really, i'm doing my best to not fret too much about it..
mas mahirap pag laging iniisip, kaso pano ko hindi iisipin? any suggestions? =))
and another thing, at least i get to talk to him everyday over the phone..(buti nalang hindi long distance ang tawag)

-gusto ko mag dance maniax ulit
-kulang ang oras, at pagkakataon, hahaha
-at least we got to see each other yesterday! kahit sabi ko no dates for this week..=D well it wasn't really a date,,but i don't care, hahaha...=P

last week, was such a rainy week, seriously! hahaha...
too much rain, but thanks to that, we were able to go home early last friday, yay! =D

'twas my first time to be late for work last thursday...that was the day na nung magising ako ay sobrang lakas na ng ulan...
that was also the day na magkikita kami ni ifor after our monthsary..i planned on going to work early, so that i could go out early as well, but then, because of the rain, i wasn't able to, my mom stopped me nung papasok nako, sumabay na daw ako sa pinsan ko paglabas niya..then my cousin called me, and ihahatid na lang daw siya ni bryan, her boyfriend, so sabi niya kung gusto ko daw sumabay, sabay na ko sa kanila..actually i was kind of pissed na nun kasi nga i was thinking of going to work early tapos hindi ako makakapasok ng maaga so baka late na ko makauwi, but, sabi nga ni mama, mga 8 na kasi kami makakaalis ng bahay nun, gusto ko naman daw magpalate, so naisip ko, kung malelate ako, maaga ako makaka-out, 5pm pa lang pwede na, so ok na rin..
'twas a blessing in disguise na rin, hahaha...na-traffic pa kami,of course because of the rain, so mas matagal din ang travel time...we arrived here sa office at around 9:25 am, so hindi pa ko late, kasi later than 9:30 am ang late..anong ginawa ko? tumambay ako sa cr, ginawa ko na lahat ng pwedeng gawin para lang ma-late ako, hahaha...
so there, i was late, and i was able to get out of work early na rin..=P

ifor and i met up sa MOA, as usual...'twas still early so we decided to go to timezone first, then just eat after..
before thursday came, i already told him that i wanted to talk to him, like a serious talk or something, like not our usual conversation..so he said ok, let's do it on thursday then..and so while we were eating, or after we've finished the twister fries, hahaha, he said what did you want to ask me? or tell me? so i asked him everything that i can think of..random stuff really, but there were some really interesting things there, hahaha...well it's all good..
it's nice to have a conversation like that from time to time..
actually, i think my real purpose for that talk, was that i wanted to know him more..i wanted to know more things about him..
i just wanted to know who he really is, or what was he like before..i just felt like i still have a lot of things na hindi ko pa nalalaman bout him..at least now nadagdagan na ang information ko about him, hahahaha...parang imbestigador lang, =P
pero siyempre diba, it's always nice to know a lot of stuff about your partner, your bf/gf,,,it helps na mas makilala mo sila...=D

then yesterday, we watched Harry Potter 6..muntik na kaming hindi matuloy, coz of some circumstances, hahaha...
well at least, we were still able to watch, =D and we were able to see each other ulit..and we were able to spend some time together ulit..at, may katabi na naman kaming batang maingay,,sabi niya kay dumbledore, 'nasan na yung matanda?' gah!! hahaha...
then her mom's phone wasn't in silent mode, then it rang, then she answered it, at nakipagusap pa talaga! gosh,hahaha...nakakabaliw...=P
then it was time to go home,,'twas time to part ways, again..
then when i arrived sa bahay, dinala naman si mama sa hospital..but now she's doing okay..so much for yesterday..

*forgive me, for the mushiness and cheesiness of this post, again*

today is our 8th month anniversary..
we did nothing extravagant or anything..
we just stayed at my place, watched tv, watched his michael jackson dvd, played the sudoku game i bought him, watched the uaap opening, ate, talked, laughed, nothing special,,but the day is special, really..

'twas really fun actually..
kahit nasa bahay lang talaga kami at wala lang yung mga ginawa namin..
haha..it's been a while rin na nagpunta siya dito sa bahay..
buti na lang saturday ngayon, wala kami parehas pasok, kaya we just spent the day here at home..
sayang nga he wasn't able to stay much longer, he has a bowling game kasi tonight, so he had to go home early..

but it was okay, i spent my whole day with him,,feeling ko maikli lang, parang ang bilis, pero matagal na rin yun...=P
the moment i woke up, he was already here..=D
it was the best morning/best wake up i had, ever..so far..=P
siyempre naman, gigising ako tapos siya agad makikita ko diba? what more could i ask for..=P

i ate lunch with him..ate merienda with him..yun nga lang wala nang dinner, hahaha...
i surprised him with the sudoku game, and the pair keychain..=D
still it was really great, yun nga lang i wasn't able to do yung plan ko, pero ok lang, it can wait..
and of course, this day wouldn't be complete without some sweetness in it..♥

i just had one of the most special and fun saturdays ever..
looking forward to more fun and sweet days..=D

i love you pb!
♥